ice cream crown,

It's been 5 months since last post..

what have i done during this period of time? let me think..

the last post was talking abt my boyfriend wanted to be alone for a while and stuff, we actually broke up after that post...bummer..i know!

and i was fucking hurting and could have died from the pain.

Luckily i've got a friend was there for me throughout the whole time, this good friend, which we were not allowed to be friends when i was with my ex.

he's like fancied me for a long time,

during CNY holiday, i've suddenly had weird feelings for him , and he was to leave this country in 2 weeks time. I know, what a joke!!

So we sort of like had a good time for 2 weeks, we had the most awkward first kiss ever!

I remembered that we had a argument about what we should do in the next 10 days, we had differnet opinions, but we still met that night

We went to the ghetto bar downstairs of his appartment called Dick's Tarven, our favortae place to hang out! feels like it's our own bar!

we played games, talked abt what we've done in day time and the relationships we had before, then pause,

ususally this moment u should just kiss right? this genius said to me "I'm still thinking if i should kiss you in the next 10 days!"

what the fuck!!!!!! "You've just ruined the moment!!!", "I dont wanna make things more complicated since im leaving in 10 days.."

"anyway, i'm open to it"

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so he leaned on the table and asked me to come to him (←it's just not romantic at all!!!!!!!),

he knew that if he grabbed me i would have leaned back, and that would just make him even more awkward!!!

So i slowly came over with my whole body shivering...we had our first kiss! that's awkward, but unbelivably sweet!

I miss this guy, he's not in Taipei anymore and wont come back in a short time,

I'm glad we had this sweet time together, every time i think of it, i smile from the bottom of my heart! it's really beautiful!!

it's not like i dont wanna be with this person, he cant accept the long distance relationship, he said to me" Distance kills things"

and i know he's actually afraid of getting hurt again, so am I...

I have to admit that i havent fully recoverd from the break up, i still need some time to heal...

anyway...it's a good 2-week sweet memory! hope one day we can continue this journey, and it's not far from now!