It's been 5 months since last post..
what have i done during this period of time? let me think..
the last post was talking abt my boyfriend wanted to be alone for a while and stuff, we actually broke up after that post...bummer..i know!
and i was fucking hurting and could have died from the pain.
Luckily i've got a friend was there for me throughout the whole time, this good friend, which we were not allowed to be friends when i was with my ex.
My boyfriend of 5 years said to me on Sunday that he wants a break from the relationship, he wants to be alone in this period of time, he doesn't wanna live my life and he wants to be happy with himself and his work.he also wants me to think abuot what i want and be happy with myself and do whatever i want to do, plan for myself and stuff. i dont know if it's just an excuse that he wants to do whatever, like going out with somebody else...
We still talk on a daily basis and stuff, but it's like im always guessing if he would answer my calls, if he doesn't, i'd think if he's doing something with someone etc etc, if his tone of voice is a bit strange, it effects my mood too,this is too painful for me, i cant eat and sleep properly, my chest is always stiff, i cant even breath~
Lots of advice from "the relationship talk" webiste says: give him the space that he wants, show him that im calm and mature, here's the best advice that I've discovered:
Ladies and Gentlemen...I give you~Little Apple, our princess at home. 
