ice cream crown,

   I've just changed a new job at the end of March, and im sort of in the transition period, 
"extremely down" is how i feel now, i have no friends and no work to do, somehow i introduced my previous colleague to my current work, im sort of like regarding her as my savior from being alone, but i guess things just dont work out when u started thinking it's under control, she's not coming, coz the other company offers her another clinet to deal with, title and pay raise, what a nice offer!!

   Yesterday i had dinenr with my previous colleagues, they kinda compared my quitting and her situation：
no friends, not getting higher salary and no anything that i can rely on is what they commented on my new job.
i thought i was defeated that time...

   When i talked bout my feelings after dinner with my bf, he said: I'm only making the situation worse myself by pitting myself and doing nothing about it, and i shouldn't have shown my vulnerabilities towards my friends, i only make a obvious target to let them walk over my wound, inspiring, and it reminded me that i've made the same mistake again when i changed to OMD.  

   This morning somebody from my work happened to email us about " Steve Jobs' Stanford Speech",it really inspired me a lot,  

   "Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college, but it was very, very clear looking backwards 10 years later. 
   Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward. You can only connect them looking backwards, so you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. 
   You have to trust in something--your got, destiny, life, karma, whatever--because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference."

   I guess i'll have to stick to the decision i've made, and trust it will somehow connect to my future, and also keep reminding myself why i wanted to leve my previous job in the first place, not keep looking back and feeling sorry what i dont have as yet, coz ill have it all pretty soon~

Sometimes we just need to be inspired, no matter how old we are~~